disturbing photos.

Hi there,
there are many disturbing photos here that will most definitely not appeal to your senses.


If the date there's right, i'm 3, but i certainly do not look three. I look 5.


I'm 9, and my sister's 4. (She isn't all that, really, shes actually very annoying now)


SAM SAW THIS PHOTO AND BURST OUT LAUGHING.
I think i was 8.



We really aren't that close anymore. I'm 9, shes 4.


OKAY ENLARGE THIS PHOTO.
AND LAUGH.
I'm 7, shes 2.


HEH HEH, Hairstyling lessons.
I'm 8, shes 3.

Okayyyyy I was feeling nostalgic thats all.
(:

omg payday payday payday

tomorrow's the 1st of August and we all know what that means
...............................

ALLOWANCE DAY!
YES! WTF FINALLY ALLOWANCE DAY!
!!

OMFG LIFE WITHOUT MONEY HAS BEEN UTTERLY TERRIBLE.

PAYDAY PAYDAY PAYDAY PAYDAY YAAAAAAAAAAAAY.
y-e-y yey!

so anywayz,
tomorrow's a friday, too!
we all love fridays, don't we!

so anyway.
NO MORE POKEY HOLES THIS MONTH.
N-O.
waste money only.
and i think i have enough holes ald, so yes.

resistresistresistresistresistresistresistresist.
resist the free offer, too.
resistresistresistresistresist.
..........
): <

"i've held back a wealth of shit but i think i'm gonna choke, i'm standing in the shadows with the words stuck in my throat."

and i'm frustrated with myself, but i can't change, don't want to be me anymore, and all the ticks and tocks and clicks of clocks that tell the time tell me this is just a phase.

prettyhandsomeawkward.

HAHAHA.
I think this picture is damn cute.
And I'm still stuck at my stupid chinese shit.

D:
i can't bring myself to even touch the newspaper.
sucks la, seriously.

Love Fool- New Found Glory

Whats the point?
I don't see the need to attend service anymore.

I'm not gonna go t school tomorrow I guess,
Cramps, yeh.

Whooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
Stupid cheenani homework.
Listening to covers is really fun.

:D

I feel so,
funny.
get well soon toh!
stomach flus must suck,
but look on the bright side,
you get to lose weight.

ah freaking weight problems.

I seriously hate chinese.
h8888888888888888888888888888888888.
i have like 1 gong han thing and the stupid chiense powerpoint shit to do.
stupid la,
chinese can go and suck my hairy balls.

Hi Cindy rocks my balls. \m/


cindy says:
SERIOUSLY ITS CALLED METAL AND UH. EVENT HOUGH SATANIC MUSIC IS SATANIC BUT AT LEAST YOU DONT FUCKING WORSHIP HIM AND LIKE ITS SERIOUSLY A CHOICE OF GENRE !

YEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH omg cindy you rock my hairy balls and ovaries and whatever else.
and i still owe you $9, heh heh.

Gephandy, heh heh heh heh.
whoo! :D

Steph.

[edit]
my cbox is cleeeeeeeeeeeean :D
[/edit]

not yet

hi,
life's been strangely okay these days.
and no, i'm not switching t lj yet.
awwwww crapz.
gah.
i hate clowns.

okay,
chinese holiday homework seriously sucks balls.
yes i have not finished.
and i'm doing it now.
gah.
1 page and a half.
screwwwwwwwwwwww it.

): <

grace's mom is damn cute.

ohohoh i have t blog about friday.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

okay,
sam, alison, me, melvin, barbie and ronald went for dinner.
alison was very annoyed cause ronald was there.
so after that we went t mel's house.
hahahahah i met his mom and his dad.
the mother's legs very nice ^^
i seriously dont know how his parents allow girls in his house la, omg.
then sam had t go, so we followed her t the road.
then we went back t his house.
they were playing guitar hero,
and i seriously didn't know how t do it.
AH YES.

i was using his toilet,
and there was this cloth on the door knob.
i thought it was a towel, but it sure didnt look like one.
so i just dismissed the thought and wiped my hands on it.

In the room,
S: Eh whats that cloth on the knob ah
M: Huh which one
S: The black one got south park thing on it one.
M: Oh my underwear.
S: WHAT?!
S: I FRIGGIN WIPED MY HANDS ON IT.
M: HAHAHAHAHA
S: omg shut upppppppp.

okok then walked t bus stop and then went home.
yupyup,
byebye.

Mood- Annoyed
Music- SlipKnoT

I keep my scars from prying eyes
Incapable of ever knowing why
Somebody breathe,
I've got to have an answer
Why am I so fascinated by
bigger pictures, better things
But I don't care what you think
You'll never understand me.

Thats it, its lj for me.

28 more days till my ground's over.

Yay, whoohoo.
Very nice.
So anyway let me tell you something,
2-1's going to Sungei Buloh on Saturday with ACS Barker guys.
Die.

Die.
And i'm the science monitress so i'm expected to go.
Die.
I don't wanna go mrs phuaaaaaaaaaa ): <
Today Mrs Phua seriously scared me,
its like we were eating and she suddenly came up t me t ask me about forms, so freaky.

Anyway,
I'm still laughing over what Joanne Ler said.

i'm very innocent,
and i'm very holy one okay.
AND
i'm extremely decent and tall.

I think i should move back to livejournal.

Fullstop.

I want t protect some posts.

Fullstop.
I need to protect the post i'm gonna do sooner or later.

):<

Hohohohohohohohohoho.

Yes my hair very unglam.

friendster is damn scary

hi,
i hate friendster.
there're gross and scary weirdos who keep viewing me and sending me freaky messages.

From:
ahmad
Date:
07/21/2008 4:07 am
Subject:
hey dere new fren .!

Message:
hey, i dont really noe u well.
hahas. yah ,btw do you mind if i
u ask u for ur no.?! . hahas.
btw .. ,u look cute.! .hahas.

.. .

till here! ..

Reply:
Sorry I don't give my number to strangers.

Then got one more sia,


From:
WRGK (xIaO
Date:
07/19/2008 1:28 pm

Subject:
add

Message:
add mie..


W, T, F.
ew.

yes, ew.

Daphne Loves Derby

The longest story.

K hello,
today Althea, Sam, Elvina, Melvin, Ronald and Joel came over.
For fun.

heh heh.

k so we ended up sitting around, doing weird stuff.
yeah.

byebye.
(pictures when althea comes online)

hi i really dont know what was so good about the musical,
i thought it was okay, thats all.

so anyway,
today was funnnnn.
new york new york-ed.
expensiveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

then talktalktalk t grace.
<3

so anyway,
gollymolly okaaaaaaaaaay,
):

haiyahaiya, i have seriously a lot of failed attempts to study,
cause i'll always end up cam whoring, always.

):<
okay i'm gonna try practice math or sth now,
byebye

ready when you are

you said it to me once or twice tonight
i'll be the first to call your name
if i die tonight i want your name written on my grave
just go, let it go
you know now its not a race
but don't let me know

i'm ready when you are,
take me home
you know i shouldn't be left alone
tell me whether i'm right but tell it to my face
tonight

with everything i do (and everything you see)
how can you put up with me?
and i shouldn't do half the things i don't want you to see
and i shouldn't be here alone tonight
so just bring me home alright
so i can see you

Single Millionaires

hello world,
i really don't like poseurs (:
its kind of annoying sometimes.

so anyway,
i'm suddenly addicted t lovedrug.
i like in red.
quite nice.
but then again, the way they sing's like theyre on dope.

okay i like brighten,
ready when you are's really nice.

i'm going back to church,
i'm going back to church,
i'm going back to church,
i'm going back to church,
i'm going back to church,
i'm going back to church,
i'm going back to church,
i'm going back to church.

no more skipping service,
no more not paying attention during service,
no more stupid behavior,
no more.

i'm gonna stop myself from turning into this monster.

steph.
nothing is impossible for you.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHA.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

i like deo.

hi.
MELVIN BRYAN AND RONALD ARE THE MOST IRRITATING PEOPLE ON THE PLANET.

*doorbell rings, RING RING RING RING RING
M: Shit my father!
S: OMG ARE YOU SERIOUS?
R: Yes if his father finds out theres a girl in the house they will cane him!
S: *freaks out.
M: HURRY HIDE.
S: WHERE?!
M: Under the table.

So i squeezed myself under the table, with what pillows covering my face.
Guess who was his father,
who else but the sissy.

ANNOYING OK ANNOYING.
!!

K so anyway i sprayed like damn a lot of deo on my head.
byebye.
ah i upload the pathetic 1 photo later
byebye.

hah, guess who

HAHAHAHAHAHA, SISSY BOY.



HAHAHAHA the one that can't eat with chopsticks.

K, so anyway,

to Grace Koh Xian Ying,

Sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry
sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry):
sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry
sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry):
sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry
sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry):
ilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyily
ilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyil<3

):

i love you toh

First of all,

I want to dedicate this post to Althea Toh.

Thank you Althea Toh Wern-Rae for always being there for me,

for never getting angry with me even when i'm at my worst.
Thank you for always getting me out of trouble,

and encouraging me when i'm down.

Thank you for accepting me for who I am,

even though sometimes i'm really nasty and mean.
Thank you for being who you are,

Thank you for everything.
I love you <3

Sorry, Althea Toh Wern-Rae for being a bitch sometimes,

I'm sorry for not being understanding enough,

Sorry for the mean things I've said,

and i'm sorry if how I behaved today made you sad.

But I love you Toh, very much,

even though I don't really express my emotions very well, I really do.

And I appreciate the fact that we've gone through so much together.
School, IP, "Stalking", The constant hours on the phone, everything.

In the coming years, I really do hope we'll stay as close to each other as we already are,

and that nothing will ever change.

3 more days and you're 14!

I love you Toh,

I really do.

<3,

Steph.

picturez

Center of Excellence '08.
(:

Hohohohohohohohohohohohohohohohohohohohoh :D:D:D:D:D:D

we sure are cute for two ugly people

I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else, but you

[edit] Happy birthday Janel! <3

I will not blog about yesterday I will not blog about yesterday I will not blog about yesterday I will not blog about yesterday.

Ho hum.
Byebye! [/edit]

i'm the sexiest shit in the world right

damn hot right.
my pinafore so long,
my face so fat,
my specs so fugly.

okay.
so anyway i'm like going t upload pictures of dinner with my parents like in the next post or sth,
i'm totally irritated with blogger.

k so anyway,
today i was like being damn stupid,
singing some weird song.
me: doo doo doodoo doo doo doodoo
*turns around
me: doo doo (stops suddenly)

right behind me was MISS GAN.

she was like trying her best not t laugh ok.

G: (half smiling) eh your socks
S: YAYA SORRY SORRY
G: Next time must buy new one ah
S: OKOK *walks into wrong class

damn stupid ok.
miss gan is freaking scary.

peeeeeeeeeekaboo

Me and Althea, Class Outing '08.





Warning,
Mass uploading of photos,
and yes, i know i got a lot of armpit fat,
and yes,
althea and i stripped on east coast park.
yes,
i know i'm fat.


HAHAHAHAH at macs, where we saw david.



idk where we were




yea la yea la, i got fats ok.

yes, they're mr lim's sunnies.


unglam.


HAHAHAAH LOOK AT MRS CHONG AND MR LIM.
CAN LAUGH OK.





ASEAN Seranade, Sheralyn and I




Sheralyn and I, again.






HAHAAHAHAH CHERNOBYL CHILD



Charity, Sheralyn and I




CHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEZE

"close your mouth"
"no you open yours"

okok, so anyway,
today i witnessed an accident and i want t cry cause its damn traumatic.

and omg nigelina lives near me,
and she lives next to an ANGMOH GIRL.
WHOS FRIENDS WITH THE HOT ANGMOH GUY.

omg ok.
k byebye

Steph

Tag Replies.

Alvina- Yes, DNT rocks my socks.
Eunice- I love carrot cake(:
Sam- Nono, I love Hohoho as well :D
Debs- ):
Pris- Heyhey loveee (:
Alvina- Yesyes HEYHEY.
gracek- ):
Binny- NOPE :D
giraffe- yes hello sharon (: Thanks for the pennnnnnnnnnnn :D HUGS.
Del- NO ITS ESPLANADE, BUT ITS PRONOUNCED AS NARD.
Yoon!- hello! (: class outing soon, yes?
reader- omg you sound like my pastor. but thanks anyway (:
fan- yes, my posts are long. (: who are you!
joanne- heyhey! THE JOURNAL HOW.
ABS.- heyhey! NO OK. you horrible!
SAM- STOP IT YOU NINNY!

okay, althea still hasnt sent me the pictures.
very sad ok.
tmr i post pictures.
):<
and my history project havent even finish yet la.
and my chinese homework also ok.
die la die la.

Quiz

RULES:Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italise the statements that you WISH are true.
Leave the Fibs alone.
Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes. (Wow, all the time rather)
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D
I like the way i look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop then eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cellphone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I am happy at this moment!
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced. (HAH)
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junk.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.

This was so,
unnecessary.

Hohum, i took 15 minutes to space out this whole quiz,
and about 4 minutes to complete it,
sweet(:

class gathering 08

46 more days.
Wow.

Hi, world,
today was the class outing.

On behalf of the "organizers", I thank all of you sincerely,
those that actively participated, of course.
(:
to those that didn't participate as much,
well there goes your first and most probably, last, class outing.
(:

Pictures tmr,
when toh bluetooths our sexy pictures,
of us like being supermodels stripping on the beach.
oh oh oh,
i can proudly say i stripped down to my bra with althea toh wern-rae at east coast park.
(:
then class outing procedures.
interesting,
I WANT T CRY.
I LOST MY BLACK CANVAS FLATS AT THE BEACH.
*Wails.

crycrycrycrycry,
aiya nvm la can buy again one.
): <

ok so anyway,
after all the games was lunch.
and i must tell you all the david ong incident.

D: *cleans wound
S: OMG GOT BLOOD YOU NEED DETTOL NOT, I BROUGHT LEH!
D: no need no need
S: NEED AR KILLS 99.99% OF GERMS
D: how to put?! On the tissue?!
S: omg nevermind.

very funny.
then his friends thought we were deaf or sth.

okok,
tmr then i blog into detail.
now i'll like continue the silent treatment i'm giving my parents,
pretend to study,
then sleep.

oh, i haven't even done my chinese holiday homework.
smile (:

bye.

to the best people ever that grounded me for four months.

for what, lying to you about a bag.

[edit]
like you've never lied to him, and hes never lied to you.
like you've never lied to anyone for making online friends, meeting up with them and god knows what you've did with them.
like you've never lied about who you're going out with.
like you've never lied about where you're going.

going into the car, threatening me if i told anyone what i heard you'd disown me.

grounding me for vulgarities,
who taught me to say them anyway.
none but the sweet loving themselves.

[/edit]

so much for trying to change.

hate,
hate,
you can hate,
but for what?

turning over a new leaf,
marking a new start.

this,
is where i truly begin my life.

now i have no anger,
but sympathy.

this,
is where it begins.

today veh exciting wor

today i went somewhere with some people and did something very impulsively.
:D

tomorrow,
only tomorrow then i'll tell the world.
(:

ILY TOH.
SATURDAY I GO WITH YOU GO GET.

i still bloody need my beltttttttttttttttttt D:
hmmph.

to kiss the ones you love goodbye

There's an angel by your hospital bed
Desperate to hear his name on your breath
As he looks down you're not making a sound

Open your eyes, look at me
I'll bring to you whatever you need
And I'll tell you I'm sorry
That I can't take this pain away from you
And I'd put it on my own body if I knew how to

Can't you see?
I've gotta bust you outta here somehow
I've never seen your heart this tired
I've never seen your spirit held down
I know that you say
This is what you get
For being a bad child
But I know this would be your reward
For just a little while

Its testing the strong ones
Scaring the beautiful ones
It's holding the loved ones
One last time.

Ho hum,
melancholy,
nostalgia,
dysphoria fills my veins.

disappointment,
discontentment,
what a letdown.

needles and rings,
all i can think of now,
hyperalgesia.

oh well,
nobody said it was easy,
i'll take you back to the stars.

screwed up.
two words.
i've screwed up.
three words.

education,
a good education,
gone.

one chance,
i didn't take.
one opportunity,
i didn't grasp.

why?

i've changed.
whatever happened to the old me?
when i look at old photos, young photos,
i recollect how i used to be.
daring, innocent, child-like, godly, nothing else would matter in the world.
i'd never want to hurt a friend.
i'd never want to cause grief or sadness to anyone.

i had goals,
i had aspirations,
i had dreams,
i had real smiles.

i never thought of getting piercings,
never thought of getting tattoos,
never thought of smoking,
never thought of drugs,
never thought of alcohol.

i guess i understand how my parents feel now,
that i look back at old photos and saw how happy i was,
how words would never shake me,
how firm i was,
how laidback i was,
how happy-go-lucky i was.
everything's changed i guess,
and it forever will be.

happiness as a child,
was merely slides,
swings,
lollipops,
friends.

i guess life's like that,
as you mature,
your definition of happiness changes along with you.

i miss the old me,
i really do.